Kiwi Farms: Let’s go!!!
Streamed live on Dec 22, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lm6HCqb8Dsw

hey Anne hello Chris hi Marie hello
hello welcome you guys thank you for
coming in if you guys can give me a
thumbs up as you come in I'd really
appreciate it I never asked but I want
to see some thumbs up too much
negativity lately come on in welcome
welcome
how is everybody sunday going Oh Thank
You Sahara well thank you hi Lynn
welcome hello I'm having a good day so
far just got back Thank You Marie thank
you thank you so much sorrow thank you
oh I just got back I took the kids out
for a little bit Oh Chris thank you I'm
gonna I really could use it right now
hey Jana welcome and thank you for
popping in I definitely can use all the
positivity anyways yeah I took the kids
out for a little bit it's pretty nasty
and gloomy out it's not it's not raining
as hard as I thought it was supposed to
rain but it still just gloomy so I was
like well let's go for a little Drive
kill some time New Year's we usually do
like a really good good a really big
dinner like Turkey and all the sides and
stuff and then we usually give the kids
a few gifts each to like celebrate the
new year but that's on New Year's Day
New Year's Eve we just stay home I don't
like going out and driving around on New
Year's Eve just too many too many people
that are driving around that probably
shouldn't be
so it kind of scares me oh do you what
do you guys usually do or go for when
you guys go out and I'm so sorry
that has got to be so painful I am so so
sorry and just know my arms are wrapped
around you hey animal lover welcome hi
Diana welcome boy I'm seeing all my my
all my favorites I didn't I kind of
posted a little thing that said I was
going live but I didn't make it a big a
big announcement hey hey welcome hello
hello everybody coming in welcome oh
that sounds like fun
oh thank you animal lover thank you I
miss all of you guys I did kind of fall
behind on my my vlogs I did hey Maggie
how are you feeling sweetie I heard that
you were not doing very good let me know
how you're doing I'm in Ohio today for
vacay oh how is the weather in Ohio love
you so much oh so hard thank you I love
you too lots and lots of love for all of
you guys I have my um tripod kind of
there I have it kind of crowd like
stationed right in between my legs
because one of my legs fell off of my
tripod so I'm kind of balancing it with
my foot so if a jerks around it all I'm
sorry
oh really 40s are I don't know what the
weather is here I mean like the
temperature it's raining and cold in
California is is ahora I'm doing okay
not a hundred percent yeah ended up
getting pneumonia again and oh my gosh
Maggie Wow
well hilling vibes towards you
girlfriend because i know you've been
struggling with that I am from Florida
so it's cold
Oh risky I bet you it is oh my gosh I
bet you I've heard that Florida's really
like is it humid there is that like the
word to use oh thank you Maggie I know I
miss you guys I miss all of you I was
gonna go live yesterday but just too
much was going on and I didn't feel
comfortable to go live until I settled
some things
hey Cindy welcome and so I thought you
know I'm gonna just all go alive
tomorrow and I I had put up the one vlog
but I was just like ah I'm not gonna put
up a vlog today I'll just yes I was very
humid humidity feels like oh yeah I
can't stand humidity whoa oh my gosh
hold on just a minute you guys
sorry baby girl wanted to come in but
I'm trying to get her set up up so that
she's not on camera nope you have to
stay over there so that you're not on
film so anyways I don't remember what I
was saying thank you honey
oh thank you i actually chopped them
down so much this one this middle one um
should be doing that this middle one i
went home yesterday i would to go pull
my pants down and it snapped right in
half and I'm like what in the world
and so s4 come down here and get your
brothers Chargers or no his charger over
there so I can plug your iPad in and so
yeah yeah it's gonna die so I had to fix
that one well I had all my nails really
long but I was just I don't know I
wasn't feeling it so I took them way
down way way down and yes just so
everybody knows this is a fake ring
I just want to announce that okay this
one is my real band this is my fake
bring my real ring is in my safe what
yes bring me the port so I can plug it
all in is everybody here 15 Maryland on
Sunday morning whoo what is what's the
weather like in Maryland
okay Esther give me the plug over there
underneath the blanket by my foot over
here look pull pull the blanket
I can't move because if I move this
whole phone holder is gonna go flying
give me the cord yes please yes thank
you
they lose chat here
am I not oh I'm seeing okay maybe just
nobody's typing are the kids plane
missed them um s was right here she's
sorry Justin my phone again Ezra's here
she is playing on her iPad or her tablet
um I was just coloring something and
then Omar and Maya are watching a movie
but they were playing earlier today
playing hard so Omar is a little pooped
out how are you feeling Amy I am feeling
really good thank you for asking I am
I'm feeling good
it's hey Margaret welcome okay you can
paint them okay um hi Bailey but anyways
yeah I'm feeling really good I'm getting
more adjusted to all of my meds that you
know we kind of switched volumes on I
had somebody ask me why is the sleeping
pill that my doctor has me on it's a
sleeping pill / they use it for sleeping
pill and I guess it can help with pain
so and I don't have the name of it in
it's in my living room oh my welcome I
know exactly who you are sweetie
but yeah I I'm feeling really good
Thank You Diana thank you thank you um
how is that bubbly I am looking at right
now and was thinking a binds up honestly
if you can stand if you can stand a
sparkling water then I think you would
like them I mean that I like them and
I'm really yeah when it comes to stuff
like that but I'm really really pushing
on getting off of this Oh
so I went to Walmart and bought no sorry
I went to Costco because it's cheaper at
Costco in a sense because you get three
cases in one pack for $6.99 is that
right
it's either 689 or 999 I'm not 100%
positive and it comes with three flavors
the blackberry I wasn't too fond of as
much as this one this is the raspberry
and this one I absolutely I love it and
it doesn't have a strong flavor it's
just okay I'm going to try it and I
enjoy raspberry - yeah I that's my thing
is I really like raspberry um I'm kind
of burnt out on the whole strawberry
taste take them - movie star wars Oh
fun times um yeah I just I'm I'm really
nice day-to-day 4md what's MD oh my gosh
Raimi welcome welcome hi kitty
how are you what I'm jumping around
because I keep I don't know if my
messages are coming in slowly so if I'm
not responding to you like quickly it's
because somehow my messages are like
lagging I think hey Molina welcome oh my
gosh
all oh my all my friends are here okay I
can't tell if the tones hold on you guys
I gotta see
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um how do I see if this thing is
charging oh it is uh how do I get out of
it
I hope I can get back if anybody can
hear me I hope you guys are all still
there
sorry I don't know what I just hit but I
went flipping around um thank you Mela
thank you so much I'm so happy you
stopped in Melina I am doing good I am
doing really good thank you a for last
night I truly truly appreciate that you
came and told me that about that video I
really appreciate it
it just is weird how it all
simultaneously happened like I don't
know it was just weird but I appreciate
you coming in and telling me that
yeah please smash the thumbs up I love
it
Oh oh my gosh you are a lucky duck
Dianna I want oranges thank you I'm so
happy that I have such amazing
relationships with so many amazing
people you guys are awesome
Mamie I'm gonna get into it here in just
a few minutes I'll share with you guys
Salaam alaikum and welcome I'm doing
good thank you for asking
doing good been just chillin I'm sitting
in my I'm sitting in my bedroom right
now this is my bed let's see I don't
know if you guys can see that but my bed
has one of the whatever these things are
called and it has lights that go around
it but I didn't turn the lights on Oh
got it Diana Oh running slow oh my gosh
so there's been a few people that have
asked and I have had so many well not so
many but I've had a few comments made to
me asking you know what's going on
because they're seen a few things being
talked about around YouTube bleh
you know how that works and you know I I
stand clear because I have my channel is
growing and I cannot be more grateful
and thankful that my channel is growing
and I don't want to I don't want to drag
this whole problem to bring down people
cuz I know sometimes people come to this
channel because not me not just me but
all of you have welcomed each other so
much that you all come here as a
relationship you guys have created
friendships over this channel and I'm so
happy that that has happened nope you
cannot come on the thing oh okay I'll
take care of it in a minute honey you
cannot come on the on the string hey Jen
welcome and so you know I am so grateful
that my channel is growing and you know
when your channel is growing okay come
here
but I don't want you
when your channel is growing it s where
do you want to turn on Mommy's headlight
for the bed right there yeah when your
channel grows it also grows with
negativity because there's just people
out there in this world that cannot be
happy for you hey Suzanne welcome Hey
secret life of Alex and sugar welcome oh
there you go
see now my lights are on and it goes
around my whole bed um anyways that hold
on baby girl I'm having a hard time oh
there you are
my back I don't know if my internet is
really acting wonky lately it's Comcast
and oh if I could chuck it out my window
I would anyways back to what I was
saying was when you have your channel
growing you're going to have some
negativity and that the you can't get by
it I mean it's just there and it's not
just because I'm a youtuber it's not
because I put my life out there it's not
because of my religion it's not because
of anything what it comes down to and
boils to is there's a lot of people in
this world that just have negativity in
their heart and they no matter as much
as they probably want to maybe see
positive they can't because it is just
drilled into them to be negative and
they will look for every negative thing
that they can and pick apart everything
that they can to a negative level so
with that I have been doing lately I've
been sticking away from a lot of people
I've built some major walls up you know
because I nope stay over here
okay it's okay
I don't need my feet covered Thank You
Jen I appreciate that comment hey hey
Ezra baby honey listen I hear now pull
it so anyways I have been building the
walls to just keep myself away from just
the just the hate you know I don't try
to get involved in it I spend a lot of
my time like I've said before multiple
times I spend a lot of my time with
Rosie's channel because well you should
have thought about that before I swear
I'm on live and I'm I can't move because
my phone hooked up to me okay well
you're gonna have to wait a few minutes
and no I'm not neglecting her by telling
her she needs to wait I know what runs
through people's mind anyways I try my
hardest to just stay out of chats that I
see negativity coming to and
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sorry I'm just trying to do things
without and you guys will understand why
I'm doing this
when I'm finished explaining all this
you'll understand
so anyways with that I have been trying
my hardest to just really you know put
myself in the most positive YouTube
channels that I can I mainly hang around
Rosie's channel I have created
amazing friendships with Rosie's channel
I go in there and it just brings my day
up so much so much and so hold on a
minute
sorry I seen some messages come through
I have one question are you not letting
those babies online because of the new
YouTube no kids have to learn patience
no matter their age sorry of too
personal of a question absolutely not
Jen that's not but I'm gonna get to it
that's why I'm I just answered no
because I'm gonna tell you why love your
daughter tell her two brothers will
watch out for her lucky little girl I
know right
I agree Jen Amy you are amazing a
beautiful woman and is amazing
Oh Thank You Linda thank you miss Linda
if they took care of their own business
they wouldn't have time to be in your
life every second of the day
absolutely Cyndi so does that mean you
are going to stop talking other
youtubers as you have done in the past
because that also brings negativity to
your channel Sara what does that mean
I'm sorry I didn't understand hey Linda
welcome RK hello um I know I I know and
you know I'm on the spectrum that here's
the thing I I always want to see the
positive in everybody I have a hard time
seeing negative in people I have a hard
time even seeing negativity at all
so when somebody is being I'm sorry stop
addressing other youtubers this isn't
really gonna be addressing other
youtubers not really this has something
totally different and you know sometimes
you have to address people sometimes
that's how you have to fix a situation
or why should I have to sit back and not
say anything and just let people talk
and run their mouth and say things that
aren't true like why can't I stand up
for myself
isn't that my right shouldn't I be able
to stand up and say hey this isn't okay
what you're saying is wrong or what
you're doing is not okay I would feel
like I should be able to say that and
not be in fear that I'm gonna reap a
huge consequence over it you are a human
just as everyone else is if they can't
accept you for you then they need to bug
off exactly no I mean in the past you
have talked about people no yes
Sara yes I if you notice if you notice
though I have not been talking about
other youtubers I have not however there
is one certain individual that there's a
certain individual that has a ring of
something going on I will get into that
here shortly I know I'm being recorded
right now I know that there's gonna be
some things made up about this and
that's totally fine but let me get back
to what I was saying so with me I see
the positive in everybody I you should
be able to stand up for yourself I do
that I do think vegan cupcake has good
intentions but I may be wrong
oh yeah Susan I'm not talking about her
no I'm not I know that's a good that is
good I understand sticking up for
yourself which is okay
yeah and that's what this pretty much is
this like what I'm saying this is gonna
fall into all of that which you guys
will see as my story goes on so anyways
I see the positive in people I don't see
negativity
somebody can do something really bad to
me and they can apologize and I am just
like that I'm able to accept their
apology and move on unless unless
they're certain there are certain things
that I just can't move on from but
mostly you know someone can say
something mean to me and turn around you
know in a few days come back and say I'm
sorry you know and I'm able to get over
it
Amy only talks about people who address
her negatively in the road manner I am
the same way yes Jan åge in exactly
sorry what what honey that one so so
trying to figure out how to say this
yesterday I had a strange email and in
this email I was told that I needed to
heed a warning and I read the email and
it was talking about this Kiwi farms and
the dark web and how they have a forum
for me and how people write things and
take screenshots and you know it's like
I don't know it's like a forum that you
can go on and bash people I guess
basically I had never heard of I had
excuse me let me read back up I have
heard of Kiwi farms but I've never been
on their site so I didn't even know how
to navigate this thing but this person
that emailed me which I'm keeping
anonymous even though I'm pretty sure I
know really who it was I'm keeping this
person anonymous because I believe that
they gave me a false name which is fine
they can do that but mm-hmm but
this person told me to heed my warning
that there's people after me and I'm not
missing everybody's comments I'm just
trying to explain this part because I
get too sidetracked and I will take five
hours to get this out so basically they
were saying I need to heed my warning
there's people after me or they're
coming after me they're gonna get CPS
involved they're gonna get Animal
Control out and all of this stuff so I
continued to read that the message and I
was just like okay you know I mean I
excused it basically because what am I
gonna do what what am I gonna do if
somebody wants to write things or send
CPS to my house or send animal control
to my house what can I do I can't stop
that I can't stop it I can show them and
I can prove to the people that had come
out to my home but I don't have to stop
them because I can't it is that's the
part of the web that we can't do that
so then a little bit later I had a phone
call and the person that called me was
the person that emailed me we talked for
awhile I'm not a hundred percent on this
part so that's why I'm being kind of
careful how I say this because I don't
want to if the person is sincere I don't
want to excuse it but if this person is
playing games I want to blow it so this
person talks to me and you know
basically says you know Amy I just don't
think you really are taking the
seriousness that this whole thing is
which in a in a sense I'm not because
again I can't stop it I can't stop if
someone's gonna try and hurt me I can't
stop it
if it happens it's gonna happen there's
nothing I can do to stop it I can
protect myself to the best of my ability
but I can't stop it
that's good yeah so anyways so I was
just like okay you know they sent me the
link in the email they sent me the link
so I clicked on it and it took me to the
Kiwi farms thing and I started reading
it and you know I to be honest with you
I laughed as I read most of the stuff
that was being said about me
oh I legit laughed you guys they made
gifts or gifs so I don't know what it's
called of me when I was working out I'm
going and all this stuff I laughed my
butt off
I almost pissed my pants laughing so
hard I didn't take it in a negative
manner like they were I think hoping I
would but I kind of I questioned myself
did this person have the best intentions
to tell me this to send me the links to
do all that or were they doing that to
make sure that I seen it but it didn't
do what I think they were hoping it was
going to do talk about me I know I'm fat
I know I have issues I know that I have
problems my family's not perfect
we have flaws I have had flaws in my
past you know they doxxed my information
on Kiwi farms they put my address out
there they've put my phone number out
there they've gotten my all my records
my public records they've posted all of
that out and I don't know if they
realize I told people not a told people
not too long ago and no it wasn't that
i legit was hiding my criminal record
but I didn't share it because this was
back in 2005 2005 you guys were in
almost 2020 I didn't think I needed to
pull up things that happen in 2005 and
share it with
my youtube channel that I just created a
year and a half ago but they made sure
to pull that up and say that I have this
huge criminal record which the only
criminal record that I have is a
misdemeanor which I've told you guys
about and I don't know what that is as
her no that's not a gas thing but that's
pretty smart that you thought that was a
gas thing um anyways the misdemeanor is
a theft - and I told you guys about it
that I shoplift it at Walmart I was a
dumb-dumb and I did a stupid thing in
2005
have I done it again absolutely not oh
and then they had to make sure that they
pulled up my bankruptcy well since
everybody wants to know about my
bankruptcy um yeah I filed bankruptcy
when I got my divorce from my first
marriage I had to take on all of the
debt in order for him to sign the
documents to get a divorce yeah to get
the divorce I had to take all the the
bad credit so I was stuck with over
sixty thousand dollars worth of debt
that I was supposed to pay off how was I
there's no way there was I would be
paying on that for the rest of my life
so when I contacted my lawyer I was like
what do I do I'm never gonna get this
out from paid underneath me it's gonna
continue to pile up so what am I
supposed to do and he said Amy the best
thing I can suggest to you is file a
chapter 7 get it probably you know
processed and you're gonna have to start
over yes it's gonna affect you for a
while but you know what it's better to
let it affect you now because okay to
let it bother or to let it affect you
now then waiting and continuing to let
all this keep building up so that's what
I did I filed bankruptcy due to my
lawyer telling me - that's what he
suggested and
I was able to clear everything then
turned around and my god what else did
they I'm trying to think what else they
did I can't remember the other one they
did something else I I can and I see
your guys's comments I do I will get to
them but
so now okay now we're gonna go up a
little bit and I'm reading all of this
they've put pictures of Omar on there
talking about how my son is raggedy and
I neglect him because I haven't cut his
hair talking about and somebody has
followed me and scaring Lee taking
pictures of me with my children out with
no socks and shoes on well here's the
thing my children don't like socks and
shoes my children ripped their socks and
shoes off every time I put them on so
when we're in the car and they ripped
their socks and shoes off half the time
I can't find him until I get back home
and ripped my car apart so what I did is
I went and bought a pack of socks and I
put my socks on my kid when we get in
and out of the car however that doesn't
mean that happens every time you're
right sometimes they get put in a cart
and they don't have socks and shoes on
is it cold
yeah sometimes it is but you know why at
the same time there's nothing I can do
I'm doing the best I can I also let my
kids do too they're gonna realize oh my
feet are cold I need to keep my socks on
but if I'm constantly fighting with them
to put their socks on they don't want to
keep in mine what is that teaching them
they're gonna have to know and learn
eventually and then it was brought up
that I had my kids out in the snow with
socks on and flip-flops yes yes you're
right yes my kids were outside we get
snow maybe if we're lucky once maybe
twice a year I don't have all the snow
stuff so that's no unexpectantly one day
I the kids seen it they wanted to go out
there and fill with snow felt like so I
was like you know what I'll just go out
there let's throw on some socks shoo
when I was a kid guess what I had socks
on my hands bread bags on my feet with
rubber bands up on him and I was stuck
in slippers I even have pictures of it
so does that make the person too caring
for me a bad
no no it doesn't make anybody a bad
parent because of that yes my kid my
oldest one had his flip-flops on he has
shoes he chose to put flip-flops on I
didn't even notice it actually until we
were already out there and then I seen
and I'm like he has full thoughts on
Omar had slippers on because again hence
he never keeps his shoes on and he's
lost them this was last year so this is
not this year and this year you know
what I did I went out and I bought a
whole bunch of sandals that are gonna
fit them throughout the summer or the
winter because why I might as well put
sandals on him it's better than not
having nothing on then turn around and
Ezra actually the kind of sock slippers
that I have that have like the little
rubber stops on him that's what she's
chosen to wear and she puts those on in
and we just carry our out to the car
because otherwise they'll get wet on the
bottom but my kids are kids
I don't I don't shelter my kids to the
point that I have an umbrella over their
head everywhere we go sometimes things
have to happen just like when they were
learning to walk you can't be behind
them every step that they take they're
gonna fall they're gonna get hurt
sometimes they're gonna learn what hurts
and what doesn't hurt that's part of
learning so that's how I have always
foreseen myself as a parent I will
encourage but at the end of the day if
they rip their shoes off and scream
because they don't want their shoes on
fine don't have your shoes on you're
gonna be cold and no you don't get sick
because you're cold you get a sick
because it's a virus I was told that by
my doctor you can go out in the cold and
it does not make you sick what makes you
sick is the virus that makes you sick so
having them taking pictures and posting
it up that I am such a bad hey Lara is
such a bad parent because my kids don't
wear socks and shoes well I'm sorry
that's just that's my parent team and I
can guarantee you CPS is not going to
come and take my children because they
go out of the house without socks and
shoes and CPS is not going to
come and take my children because I
don't cut my son's hair like are I just
think these people are delusional i
honest to god think these people honest
to god I don't think these people have
children it to be honest because if you
think that the state is going to pop in
and take a child because they don't get
their hair cut because you call that
neglect my god some people their culture
they are not allowed to cut the boys
hair they're not allowed to for a
certain amount of time so how would they
you could that would be discrimination
if the state came in and took a child
because the parent didn't cut their hair
and then there's people that when they
have a baby it's believed to shave the
cut the child's hair so is that neglect
because you shaved your kids hair at a
newborn age it's so funny just to read
and that's why I found myself laughing
more than getting mad more than saying
anything or getting hurt or upset I
laugh because I'm like these people are
honest-to-god delusional and I'm trying
to think what else was just a nutcase
let me go up and read a little bit hold
on
I've seen so many comments come through
ok um oops where am I
I'm sorry sir I believe in starting the
new year fresh though so I'm keeping an
open mind with everyone I go into the
new year giving everyone a fair chance
that is why I was addressing it now that
is a great way to look at it Sarah
peewee farms bully people to kill
themselves absolutely I heard that that
they do Jen in all fairness
tell them to bring it on you know your
kids are taken care of and your animal
is taking care of your kids aren't
neglected you don't need everyone's
permission to live your life the way you
want to tell them all to kiss your butt
I don't blame you I see no good reason
for someone to bring that to your
attention what Sebastian your pet you
need to get the police department
involved because if you need your family
however I protect yourself a bunch um I
am so tired of people threatening to
call CPS on various youtubers is
disgusting and the sad thing is Cindy
most of them do actually follow through
and call CPS and it just wastes CPS as a
time and energy oh that's what it was
they were talking about on one of the
threads they were talking about how and
I've seen the comments made in my
youtube videos to where I had addressed
that I made up to ten thousand and
twelve thousand dollars a month okay
it's very easy to make that amount of
money when you're doing childcare
especially here in the state of Oregon
it's one of the highest paying positions
as a state payer in that field excuse me
so yes the money was amazing the money
was great I loved it don't get me wrong
and like I explained I was dumb and I
was young with lots of money in my
pocket and I did not invest it the way I
should have and had I invested it the
way I should have I would have had I
would have had a paid out house I would
have had bought cars this was but this
was after my whatever it's called
bankruptcy
but I mean yeah I did make great money
and someone said well someone says well
why would you just quit your job if
you're making $120,000 a year
well I've even seen nurses quit their
jobs and they make good money too if you
get burnt out on a job why are you gonna
do it yeah it's amazing money but does
that that obviously shows you that your
hearts in it for the right reasons and
not for just the money because I was
burnt out so it wasn't I wasn't doing
like the preschool like I was years
prior I you know I was just doing it
just because and why why I these
children deserve better in the sense of
getting preschool and getting you know
all of that stuff and I was burnt out I
just I wanted to focus on my two babies
that I just had and I didn't want to
fairly have to take care of other kids
right than in there so I quit just so
that way I could restart you know and do
something different
laughs I ought to quit my job where I'm
850,000 because I hated it so much took
a massive pay cut I'm a nurse actually
off oh my gosh how funny yeah but see
that's just it and so they're they're
combined Dean okay so they're combining
me quitting my daycare
well do Qi that's your choice that's
your opinion everybody's allowed to have
an opinion if you don't I mean that's
your choice but that's not the reality
because I would never take your pet
anyways they're taking my daycare me
quitting my daycare and me not doing
foster care they're putting them
together no dumb dumbs the daycare sorry
I shouldn't say that the CPS the foster
care stuff that happened in 2000 and a
I didn't quit my childcare until 2017 I
had to think there for a minute
goodbye do G you know what I've put up
with you long enough and you are always
saying massive rude comments to me so
just go away anyways and I'm not just
I'm not pushing people out just because
they're saying something
it's just gog has said multiple me rude
things to me throughout the month and
I've always excused it I've always let
it go I've always let it go but it's
just after yesterday enough is enough
there comes a time where I have to just
finally say you know what I've had
enough I've done what I can do I've I
don't need to continuously keep proving
myself yeah Linda well I took the
garbage out so it's just that it should
start smelling a little better in here
but anyways so my childcare was closed
years after the foster care thing and
they're stating on the form that what
was it that the state there's something
more deep into the state why they didn't
let me do foster care then go go if
there's a record then go get it it
didn't seem like you guys had a hard
time getting all the other records so
you should find a record if there's
something seriously wrong why the state
didn't allow me to do foster care go
find it there should be a record
somewhere just like go look at my
childcare record I don't know if they
still have it out because I'm no longer
active but go look at it you'll find not
one complaint under my name not one not
one I never had a complaint but
supposedly these people just know
everything about me that supposedly I
lost my childcare due to the state
because of neglect to the children it's
just funny I just
I have to laugh but it gets too much the
white ferret fare well play what I have
already downloaded honey and then I will
do that okay
and calling FBI they're not gonna do
anything
they really aren't first of all people
have tried to shut Kiwi farms down for
years I guess and they've never been
successful because there's I don't know
why they've never been successful but
it's something to do with the form they
cannot get it shut down and there's no
link to the people they that you go in
under a different name is what I'm
reading so the person that I am catching
that runs the forum for mine is under
strawberry something and so what she
does is and this is this is what's scary
she has so much time you guys so much
time on her hands or he she I don't know
what it is
sits and watches my videos and time
stamps everything in my video
she took a drink of her soda and let a
burp out she looked up at her mirror and
she blinked three times I'm like oh my
god who's got enough time to sit on the
on their phone computer whatever and
literally write down every step that I
took she farted at 6.23 I can guarantee
you I never ripped but on my camera I
would never do that but supposedly I
ripped ass in the back in the kitchen
I'm like whatever but and if I did well
everybody does it but I didn't I know I
didn't it's just I don't know I don't
know but anyway soda fast-forward I went
in I read
some of it and you know they of course
had things to say about you know my
oldest Jeremiah they had st. things to
say about Ezra and how I'm teaching her
to be basically a raggedy old woman and
that's all okay you know what I am very
confident in the mother that I am oh and
they had to talk about my ring and how
it's such an ugly fake ring well no crap
it's an ugly ring it's not ugly I think
it's very pretty but no crap it's a fake
ring I already said I did the review on
it everybody knows it's a no it's not a
cubic zirconia Nats some type of other
gem but I always wear my wedding band my
regular wedding ring is a $14,000
wedding ring and it sits in my safe
because I am my fingers have gotten so
swollen and I will not get it sized
because it can only be sized two times
in its lifetime and after that they
cannot do it no more because the way
that my band of diamonds are is they
keep making the sizing back and forth it
will eventually mess up the where the
diamonds are and it can actually cause
the diamonds to fall out so I choose to
not get it sized and I choose to keep it
put away Cindy this is what's crazy when
if you were to ever go in and just read
it just because for shits and giggles
excuse me for for giggles so gay I have
the link I can send it to you you know
because it's so funny if you've got time
and you want some entertainment go read
it I died when I was reading it because
half of the things they were saying it
was so left-left filled like it didn't
even make sense what they were saying
then some of the stuff yeah it was true
what I did yes there was a video where I
yelled at Omar because he was right in
my face as I'm trying to vlog he sees it
and go ahead he sees that I am vlogging
and he's sitting in my camera mommy
mommy mommy my of course anybody that's
gonna have that going on their face
say stop like wait I don't let my kids I
try not to let my kids engage in doing
that to me
I gained a bunch of weight and got my
ring size now that I am losing weight I
am to get until I have kept it off for a
while hey perfect welcome yes Suzanne
that's exactly it so when I lost that 78
pounds my ring was fitting perfect well
actually was getting a little bit loose
on me but as I was putting the weight
back on it started getting tight on me
and I was just like we're gonna put it
back in the safe it's too expensive of a
ring to just leave hanging out obviously
so I put it in my safe that way I know
where it's at and that's that but
anyways so after I got done reading some
of these things well I'm happy to have
you here
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um okay I know I shouldn't do that ha
because I'm gonna be accused of drinking
on the job anyways but no so later on
last night I got on to Rosie's chat and
somebody says I just I I I addressed
this person earlier but I'm just not
gonna name names now somebody says or
know I went on sorry I went on and asked
if anybody's ever heard of Kiwi farms
that's what it was and because I was
still trying to figure this whole thing
out and Rosie was like no I've never
heard of it and a few people are like
yeah it's not a very good forum and then
there were some that were saying yeah
but but we've never been to it I lost
several rings after I lost weight on my
favourite ones I ran over with me oh my
god perfect oh yeah I'll stick with my
fake ring for right now because I don't
care this one got ran over
well my band I would but anyways so
pretty much I was getting a 50-50 of
people that I've heard of people that
have it
so somebody pipes up on the screen and
says or on the chat and says that's
weird that you say that Amy because I
was just watching a video about you and
I'm like video about me so she tells me
that this youtuber was talking about me
so I was like oh okay so I jumped on
over to it just curious I've heard of
this youtuber before we've had a few you
know not run-ins but she's rode my back
a few other times about how bad of a
person I am and so I jumped on her thing
just to see what she had to say hey
Shelly and soilless into it and pretty
much she was just you know summing up
what we all know that I'm fat that I
need to lose weight that it's not going
to happen until I do for myself
that what was it that hey Weezy welcome
sweetie
that my husband deserves a better like
wife and my kids deserve a better mom
and all this stuff right which I can
they totally excuse all that I I don't
care
I am confident in my marriage I am
confident with my husband I know my
husband is married to me for the good
reasons and for the right reasons
my children love me because I am their
mother and I'm very confident in all of
that so for me it's like go ahead and
say what you want it's not gonna make me
think of anything different so anyways I
comment on the person's YouTube and I'm
like why do you have it out for me so
bad what have I ever done to you for you
to have to attack me yes in the past I
have talked about a few different
youtubers not this one that's talking
about me but I have brought in a few
other youtubers and I wasn't drifting
into other people's lanes and I also
learned to stay out of everybody's lane
and to stay in my own because that's
just the best thing for me and I've
learned that and I have but clearly
there are some that still drift into my
lane but make it okay so I was like why
or do you have it out for me like what
have I done to you for you to constantly
be talking about me and making videos
about me I have done nothing wrong to
you so then of course there's a few
people that chimed in on it
Thank You Melina I appreciate it I
really do and by the way the youtuber
that made the video about me already
took the video down I didn't even I
didn't report it or nothing I have no
reason to report it if you want to make
a video about me go for it go for it now
it's just like free game I I really
could care less but anyways as I was
listening to this lady's voice I was
like god well when the person that
called me remember the person that
emailed me called me I thought dang this
voice sounds really perfect what did you
say
perfect you're too cute um anyways I
when I heard the voice over the phone I
was like oh my god this voice sounds
really familiar where have I heard this
voice before and I couldn't pinpoint but
I knew I had heard it and I almost was
thinking I had heard it from YouTube or
something before this a certain voice
and this certain person has I think
multiple accounts because I have heard
to YouTube characters and when I say
characters because I don't know who they
are because they don't show their face
they use what are those called I not
icons but like avatars sorry so anyways
I was like oh my god this voice sounds
just as familiar as the two people I
have heard on YouTube this one oh well
you have to download it honey
okay install so sorry I'm trying to
multitask here so anyways I went when I
was watching the video I was like that's
the person that is the person that
called me that's the person that emailed
me now I don't want to accuse please
please please I don't want to accuse I
don't accuse unless I have a hundred
percent proof so I'm not accusing but
I'm putting all my cards together and
thinking hmm do all of this one person
have connections to this other stuff
with Kiwi farms and the dark web and
whatever else I'm on and this person
even told me they're like you know the
Slavens don't even have a Kiwi farm form
you are popular now you're well and I'm
like I am NOT popular my god I've only
got less than thirty thousand subs like
I would think that they would be going
after people that are big big people you
know big wigs but no it's only me
amberlynn and Chantel and in fact
Chantel I was informed that which I
don't talk to Chantel but I mean I don't
have anything against her it's you know
it is what it is but I was informed
through this person that which I didn't
know she she had a I don't know what are
they called something with the coldest
water bottle or something like that I
don't know what they're called
promotions paid promotion something like
that where she was getting paid to
advertise her coldest water bottle and
endorsement yes and Kiwi farms people
attacked her attacked Kiwi farms people
attacked those the coldest water bottle
people and caused them to break the
contract with her they said they will
pay her but they no longer want her to
promote their company I was like oh my
gosh are you kidding me
they have caused people to lose their
jobs and and that's just it is people
have gotten angry with me because I
won't say where all he works well this
is the key reason why I will never ever
especially now ever allow any of that
information to go out because you don't
know who's watching behind the screen
you know I mean I have 81 people
watching but there's not 81 people Meza
writing not saying they're all 81 bad
people but I'm just saying there's 81
people watching and yet there's not 81
writing so there's people watching and
that's fine if you're bored and you have
nothing else better to do but just watch
me fine but I'm not gonna go and put my
information out there so that my husband
hey Karen welcome that my husband can
turn around and hello two of a kind I
didn't know you were in here they paid
for
breaking the contract though so that's
good yes
yes I will say I will say that they are
they they are paying her something I
only caught what she this lady told me I
don't know of much of it is how much
it's true I don't know everything
oh there she is I got my con truck back
actually thanks to my fans complaining
ok so that's good I'm glad that you were
able to do that and I I was also told
that you know they've had people lose
their children over this because they've
done complaints to the point where CPS
has actually come out and taking
people's kids I mean it's just sickening
it is so so sickening and I just I
cannot believe but now it's like I'm
putting all these pieces together
because the lady said yes hello 30
booties in here I'm putting two and two
together because this lady mentioned me
amberlynn and Chantelle and said that
were the only three that like the slate
and sisters don't have it they did
attack somebody that has like 2,000 or
two million subscribers or something
like that it's a Family Channel and they
actually somehow got into the portal of
the children's school Kili farms did and
did a whole bunch of stuff to the kids
as accounts is a sickening stop like
sick mean stuff and Slaton's has a huge
QE Farms page
do they really see I don't know that's
just it like I said I've heard of Kiwi
farms kind of like through what is it
called through passing but I've never
gone to the actual site and I didn't
even know like when I went to it before
the lady gave me the the link I went to
it I was like how do i navigate
this because it wanted me to put a whole
bunch of information I'm like hell no
I'm not I don't know what this is so
when she sent me the link I was able to
link to it and that's how I found it but
she said don't ever go to QE farms don't
OH
I've learned my lesson not to now
especially I mean like I said I laughed
through a lot of it but you know she was
talking she didn't mention you
she'll tell about how like she's like
well have you noticed that you know
Chantel has been going off the deep end
I was like no I've noticed you know that
things have been going on but you know I
mean I do know that you've just had a
major surgery and you know I I wouldn't
I wouldn't expect anything different you
know and she said it's because Kiwi
farms has driven you to that point well
I mean I can with everything that I'm
seeing my god I can see him driving a
lot of people to a point but to me I sat
and literally like I said almost pissed
myself laughing because of the gifts
that they made or gifs I don't know what
they're called of me when I'm working
out I was like ding I need to find these
so I can use them on my chats but I mean
it's just it's so sad that people have
that much time on their hands to
literally destroy somebody or try
anyways try and they can try you know
yeah okay they Doc's my information come
say hello
pull up to my house what can I do I
can't stop him pull up to my house come
to my door as long as you don't step
into my house we're good you can set up
my front door do all you want but you
step in my house then we're gonna have a
problem
but they're Daxing they're you know like
I said they've put out all my
information which like I said I can give
you guys the information I can show you
my criminal record I love how they said
that criminal record
I mean yes I was arrested I'm not gonna
say I wasn't I was arrested I was booked
and I was released and yes I have a
Photoshop I hold on just a minute you
guys hold on hold on
hmm talking about games I gotta go for
now bye all don't listen to him Amy
thank you for stopping in sweetie and
yes I know I know I gots to stop thank
you for popping in though and I just
hope that you know something eventually
will happen but I've been told that
people have been trying to shut them
down for years and it just hasn't
happened and again it's not it doesn't
hurt my feelings it's just it is what it
is like I don't
it's it I've had much worse I've went
through much worse this is nothing but
if you start physically doing stuff then
yeah we're gonna have a problem but it's
just what it is where is the protection
for you for youtubers that's going way
too far and way too personal
kitty there really isn't I mean that's
part of I think what you sign up for
when you do one of these but it's like
you know there's a lady on my channel
her name is and something now I can't
remember name she commented on my last
they're playing for tonight and they're
getting louder and louder and louder
yelling to their friends I'm like I'm on
live you guys but anyways so her name is
like an I don't know her last name
Wilfred will will bird something like
that well she was commenting on my
YouTube channels back when months ago
and I was just like whatever you know
she I don't know where is she's from
England I don't know exactly where she's
at which that part doesn't really matter
but it matters in the fact that we are
very I have someone playing for tonight
yeah they play here too and when I say
they Omar has his control thinking he's
playing and he plays with Maya and then
Maya battles against his friends at
school and stuff
so anyways she is far distance from me
and yes like I like a me said if you put
yourself out there
whereas you're considered a public
figure absolutely two of a kind
absolutely and and I'm okay with that I
am I'm okay with even them dropping my
like my criminal record because that's
what I mean public I mean you can google
my name in Google and all of my names
will come up all of you know people that
I'm associated with will come up I think
you can even get my address through
Google so I mean it's it's there you
know I know people here in Salem that
have seen me multiple times because of
my car which I've had so many messages
about my car Sarah stick her in the back
your car yes I have a sticker in the
back of my guard but but she has
commented in the past well I finally
just had enough with her one day I just
had enough and I blocked her which it
takes a lot for me to block somebody I
don't just block them if you guys just
seen with that do G person I did not I
this person has written on my my for my
youtube channel
multiple times
not the best nicest things but I just
let it go and I usually can answer with
a positive response back
why because negative against negative is
not going to work it's not going to do
anything but I also I have to be smart
about it too so maybe they will send you
postcards that would be cool postcards
remember oh yeah maybe good night Karen
thank you for stopping by thank you so
much I know this is a long life I just I
had so much to spew out because I'm just
you know I'm just tired goodbye Diana
just because you share parts of your
life doesn't mean you owe anything
anyone anything I don't know why people
think otherwise if you don't like it you
know youtuberos anyone anything exactly
exactly and and that's just it is that
this not right now I'm sorry I'm on life
I can scratch her back in a little bit I
think following someone are calling
their home is scary absolutely oh yeah
for sure but anyway so I ended up
blocking her because I just had had
enough I just really had enough girl I
was in a live yesterday that went seven
hours oh wow well those sound like
Rosie's channels I can watch a chat from
Rosie for quite a while because I will
set my phone up and I will cook dinner
or I will do dishes or I'll be sitting
there reading asuras story and I'll just
kind of be listening on the sidelines
just like if a TV was on so I do that a
lot but anyways so
really hey Donna welcome
yes milena I know you do because we get
in there together perfect you'll have to
tell me how that would be kind of
interesting I don't know how they do
that but anyway so I blocked her well
today I noticed she commented on my
thing and I'm like how did this lady
comment I blocked her well she had went
in and made a separate account just to
come onto my channel well that's got to
show some interest in my channel if
you're gonna go in and make an a
different account just so this person
can comment on my stuff girl come on now
so I told her I'm like and you must
really have yes two of a kind I'm not
sure like a they just have to log into
the game I mean I will tell him about it
such a negative channel and victim again
or changes Tinkerbell
sweetheart let me help you out here
goodbye Oh perfect I forgot you're in
here there you are
uh but anyways so she made it you know a
video or whatever I don't know what not
a video she said she's going to make a
video which go for it go for it go for
it I it's not gonna hurt my feelings but
thank you perfect but I think if you put
yourself out there you have to expect
some problems with people but if they
are just keyboard warriors ignore them
Tinkerbell leave the room bye-bye well
seeing here's the thing this is how I
feel about it because I watch youtubers
too I'm I am just like everybody else
i watch youtubers you know I have my own
opinion I sometimes have stated my
opinion I sometimes I keep my mouth shut
you know I don't mind that people say
maybe I don't agree with or maybe is
against what I think or whatever
exactly Donna exactly but that's why I
am just kind of don't do that that's why
I'm just no no because I don't want you
on the video go back over there please I
don't want it's not that I'm addressing
it because I feel the need to prove a
point I am just more talking about it
with you guys because I feel like you
guys should be in the loophole because
you guys are a part of this channel with
me and now come the oh my god she
doesn't let people comment comments so
why would she laugh a lot I wouldn't let
people spew garbage on my channel if
YouTube didn't want that function it
wouldn't be there yeah sure Lika true
no one has power over you Amy absolutely
Donna I agree I do agree but I did go in
and so some of you guys might see this
sometimes it does affect you my son was
doxxed on YouTube really Linda
I appreciate your oh thank you perfect
Thank You Cindy I appreciate it I really
do you know I absolutely Linda I agree
with that but there might be some of you
guys on here and so this is why I'm also
gonna bring this up I did go in last
night and I took I had over a thousand
friends and I knocked myself down to 199
friends I took off anybody and everybody
that I don't normally talk to that has
just been a standstill on my channel and
I am no longer going to be accepting
friend requests unless I I've talked to
you previously and I know who you are no
do not come on the key thing okay okay
then they done right there I think that
if someone is a bit fragile you too can
be really talk
this is not a place for people who are
not strong absolutely Jonna I agree I am
serious I know I could be friends with
you if I lived near you we might ha ha
ha ha ha perfect that's great yeah let's
go do you mean on Facebook
yes Lin I I did go in and I removed a
lot of people reason being is because
amna Kiwi farms somebody that is a part
of that forum was has been in my youtube
channel because they screenshotted a
whole bunch of my stuff like my groups
that I'm a part of and how I'm in a
group for diabetes I'm in a group for
which I am I am what is wrong with that
people join groups all the time that
they don't even know what they are just
to see what they are uh but somebody is
doing that and I'm just like you know
what I just I can't I I'm too trusting
again I believe there's good in
absolutely everybody and sometimes
there's just not and now I have to start
protecting myself and protecting my
family and I hate that I well I mean I
don't hate that but I do hate it I feel
like I just wish that I wish the world
was back the way it was 25 years ago
Cindy you're telling me
god forbid you join a support group on
Facebook I am in so many PTSD groups
there's nothing wrong with Linda and I I
guess I haven't you know I guess I
haven't like I completely agree with you
I am in tons of groups there's groups
that I have been joined with for years I
don't even know that even it still
exists because it's not even though I'm
part of those groups doesn't mean
they're still all active but I just
somebody is in there just for shady
business and I personally just don't
want to deal with that so that's why I
went in and
took most everybody off and I felt so
bad but I just had to because again I'm
at that point right now where I can't
trust everybody and yes Cindy I do and
Cindy I see were you on my facebook not
me I am a gay female 25 years ago I
wouldn't have been able to marry myself
Oh two of a kind not like that I mean
I'm just talking like being able to walk
outside and now I have to watch your
back because you don't know if someone's
gonna come up behind you and stab you
then Cindy you're still on my facebook
or be driving down the street and not
have to you know freaked out that your
cars are unlocked because you don't know
if someone's gonna come try and carjack
you I mean that's the type of stuff I'm
talking about but no the the openness of
today's world versus twenty-five years
ago no I totally understand what you're
saying but yes Cindy know your part
you're still on there I didn't take off
people that I normally communicate with
I know that those people are not ones
that would do it but people that I have
never even talked to and they're just on
there I'm just like why are they even on
there it boggles my mind that people
have so much time and energy to harass
others I am sorry you're having to deal
with this mess Amy well again I know
that that's part that comes with being
on YouTube and I'm okay and I accept it
but I have to learn to put my goggles on
I have to hey sweet love hello
there's my life by Jin but that's my
that's my fault that's where I go wrong
that is solely where I go wrong is again
I want and need to see the good and
absolutely everywhere I don't believe
that people truly would do what they've
done I don't I don't believe that
there's people that are that nasty
okay Linda thank you so much love for
stopping in and being a part of this and
showing your support
I truly appreciate it I just I you know
I knew I could come here and talk to you
guys and you would give me back the
feedback that I needed and I truly
appreciate that but you know that's just
something I am happy to learn is that
there is people out there that just
truly want to destroy people and I need
to check out Chen's channel yes you do
Cindy yes you do
and that's where I go wrong is that I
have not taken the time to truly learn
who people really are 90% of people are
decent but that 10% the minority are
vocal yeah Don I agree I walked out the
door and had a man spit in my face just
because I oh my god Linda hey Lindsey
welcome sweetie welcome did you ever get
my email back honey I know it's like way
past time but I emailed you back but I
never got a response so I didn't know if
maybe it didn't go through or what but
yeah so that's kind of what I've been
that's just what I've been kind of up
against you know I have watched you from
England since you started and have
always loved and supported you why do
anything else
Clare that's just it is there are some
people that just honestly have too much
time on their hands too much time to
follow people like that and they just
want to drive people to the grave and
they've sadly done it to a few people
and that is so sad
but you know what they're the ones that
are going to walk Wow Linda they're the
ones that are gonna walk with blood on
their hands they'll have to answer to it
one day so you know and I don't worry
about that I am with as much therapy I'm
in and stuff
I couldn't get to that headspace you
know and I wouldn't allow it to be there
and I'm not gonna go back on QE farms I
really you know what write what you want
put my life in a nutshell do as you want
you know it's not it's not physically
doing anything to me I'm sure people
talk about me behind my back all the
time I'm sure there are people that talk
and make comments about me when I go
into a store I am sure there are people
that talk about me when they see me
getting in and out of my car by Molina
Thank You Love for stopping in and maybe
I'll see you later on tonight on Rosie's
yeah this shall be them miserable yeah
right I truly agree people who have
boring lives are the ones who enjoy
drama as they say too much time on their
hands yep
better to do my husband and my son or
not yeah totally Linda awesome Molina
welcome of welcome ha ha all right I'll
see you over there
um but yeah I just I'm not going to
allow these people to dictate my life
and I'm not going to allow people to
stop me from doing what I absolutely
love which is why what happened Lindsay
did you write it on your did I miss it
I don't what happened to it um but I'm
gonna continue to do what I am
passionate about and that's my YouTube
channel I love doing my YouTube people
can talk behind my back but like I said
people are gonna talk no matter what
there is nothing I can do to stop that
all I can do is just press forward and
just do me and that's it good for you
Amy don't let the miserable people
dictate how you absolutely love
absolutely and in fact I'm going to be
texting you later on tonight because I
wanted to run a few things
by you but yeah it's just I don't know
it's been an interesting couple of days
like I said I need to just stay off of
the Kiwi farms because clearly I know my
life better than anybody's gonna know so
they can put my life in a nutshell but
honestly at the end of the day oh my
gosh Lin say oh my gosh oh no did you
still want those shirts made or are you
not able to do it now but yeah so I just
wanted to come in and talk with you guys
and share with you a little bit about
what's going on I don't want to bring
negativity to my channel I don't want I
mean there it's it's gonna happen I mean
that's just it there's gonna be
negativity everywhere every one of us go
every channel is gonna have negativity I
mean it that's just it's just gonna be
what happens but it's how you handle it
is how it's going to be mastered and for
me I'm just really not gonna play into
it I mean if channels want to make
comments or videos about me go for it if
it makes you feel better go for it I
told that cupcake lady I don't know
really much about her but I told her you
want to do reaction videos on us go for
it like it's not gonna hurt my feelings
I don't really care I don't have to
prove my points to any of them the only
ones that I owe an explanation to is
myself and you guys all go to the
channel together and work them perfect
that that sounds perfect
but you know I my my focus is on my
channel and that's it if people want to
record me and make fun of me because I'm
working out congratulations you know
what I've got my big booty up I'm moving
around and that's it it may not be the
way that you think I'm supposed to work
out but you know what I do what is most
comfortable to me and that's it at least
I'm doing something and that's that's
all there is about it
I probably be dropped from so many
channels but anyways so yeah I just fill
in you guys in
so if you see comments just let him go
don't even just don't even waste your
time because honestly if I say something
I might comment back but really there's
no point I'm Who am I making a point to
there's nobody that I owe an explanation
to nobody the only ones like I said that
I owe an explanation to is my loyal
friends that have been here and are here
and show me support and I'm not saying
that every one of my subs have to be in
agreeance with me that's not what I'm
saying I expect people to come with a
different opinion and that's the amazing
part like I said that is the most
amazing part about having a relationship
you know just like me and my husband I
mean there are times that we have
different opinions does it mean just
because my opinion is different than his
that one's better than the other or
we're gonna become enemies or we're
gonna fight and not drag it out I mean
no no that's the point of the beauty of
having a relationship is you can have
different opinions and you can talk
about those opinions and sometimes maybe
the other person's opinion actually is a
more like a more clearer opinion than
the one that you have and so maybe that
might open your eyes to a different view
it doesn't mean you have to be an enemy
just because you have different views
but where the the the difference of
enemy not really enemy but where the
negativity comes from
um that you guys can come to me with
your opinions and I love hearing them I
share my opinion with you guys
all the time that's what I do I sit down
to do it and some of you guys not not
you guys that some people have made
comments you know well you don't do Dave
vlogs anymore and stuff right now I'm
kind of at a standstill I don't really
know where I'm gonna go yet with all of
this I don't know you know I'm not
comfortable with my babies being thrown
out there on QE farms that part is
really not fair to them and so for that
is why I am keeping them off
I can't I just don't know yet I don't
know again there's not a whole lot that
they can do because my children are on
my videos once in a while but you know
that's that that's different than just
recording my children directly but oh my
goodness hold on Omar's having a poop
fit hold on
go baby you can go use daddy's toilet go
but that's the you know that's the good
thing about having two channels you can
do it however it's gonna work for you I
you know in 2020 ice I want to start
doing more day vlogging I do I really
really really do I want to be able to
bring you guys along more for my life
especially with this whole thing going
on with me and Jen I'm going to be
bringing you guys along more and I'm
gonna be showing you guys more of what
I'm doing in stuff I don't know how I'm
going to navigate this with the kids I
don't know just yet
and that's why somebody said well are
you keeping them off camera because of
the new rules no because this isn't
directed towards kids clearly clearly a
four or five six year old isn't gonna
sit here and listen to me ramble like
this but okay well I'm gonna be getting
off here in a minute cuz I gotta start
making dinner
absolutely absolutely Jen and that's
that's just where I kind of draw the
line with the kids so that's kind of why
I have nope you need to stay on that
side honey because I don't want you on
the film that's why right now I'm just
holding off with them because these
people on Kiwi farms you guys they are
screen shot happy they even screen shot
listen this I gotta tell you this one so
they have a screen shot of me I was on a
live one day this wasn't very long ago
my last life that I was on okay you guys
listen listen I'm on alive and you guys
need to keep your voices down okay okay
he can cover up but you guys got to talk
quiet um I moved my camera to not get
the kid the kids because Omar was coming
in to have his pants out and pull back
up so I moved my film I my phone to be
pointing out towards my shelf well I
have a basket that has like different
skin ointment for the kids as eczema my
eczema just things like that and like
special stuff for my lips and I also
have an empty empty medicine bottle that
I use when I want to put
like IV proform or something and I need
to take it in my purse I'll put a couple
in there and I'll lock it up and put it
in my purse but again nobody knows that
because they don't see into that and I
am so baffled that somebody clicked a
picture of that screenshotted that
picture with the basket on the shelf
espera I guess was somehow like up by
the shelf and they got the reflection of
her face and they put it up there and
was like this is what's being sent to
CPS and I'm like oh my god like are you
guys dead serious right now like you
seriously are going to screenshot a
picture of my medicine bucket that has
creams in it and an empty container of
medicine so I can use it to put my
Tylenol or ibuprofen or whatever it is
it is raining but whatever it is in that
vat that little bottle so I could put it
in my purse so my kids can't get ahold
of it oh my god nope it was the skunk's
gonna get ahold of it because you know
Sebastian knows how to sit there and
open those those containers you probably
could no I'm just joking and these ones
over here they're really gonna get into
the bottles they don't even waste their
time looking in those things if they're
gonna go for one of my baskets they're
gonna go for one of the baskets that
they know has like the crayons or the
craft stuff because they ain't gonna
care about those bottles they know they
can't get into them and they know they
are off-limits so there's that and then
the boxes half of the boxes that are in
that stupid basket are empty because I
just take them I open them up and when I
use them I just throw the box in there
and I just never take them out but
that's how low these people can go but
again I'm not gonna walk in fear and
that's why when 20 20 hits and me and
Jen go on this challenge fun journey
basically for each other I am gonna do a
lot of day vlogging I just don't know
how I'm going to hahaha perfect
yeah that's it I just don't know how
many to do this with the kids but I you
know of course the kids will I'm sure be
on video at some time because I can't
100% I mean hello I am a vlogger but
it's just I have to how to figure
everything out and hey sweetie welcome I
have to figure everything out and that's
just where I am trying to figure out how
I'm gonna do this so you guys stay tuned
I am again I am so sorry there has been
a little bit of a goof with even like my
vlogmas has been messed up because I've
been trying to deal with all of this and
I fall in a couple days behind but I'm
playing to catch up I'm trying I'm
really trying and I'm I will do this I
will I said I'm gonna do it I'm gonna do
it but you know it's fun I enjoy doing
this I enjoy I love doing YouTube it is
exactly what I have always not wanted to
do because I really didn't know much
about YouTube before I did it but it's
I've always been a person that loved
reality TV and things like that and
that's kind of how I feel
YouTube kind of is is like a reality TV
except you know you don't well usually
you don't do like 30 minute 40 minute
videos however I have been used to dive
bend I've done those before nope I have
done those before mm-hmm feel like a me
that's a little too long that's a little
excessive I'm like hey I got a lot to
share anyways alright you guys I am
going to get off I have been on here for
98 minutes whoa you guys are all so
great sticking around I tell my note to
take a screenshot it depends on your
phone Linda I do this um but yeah I just
I know mate right oh my gosh thank you
Lika thank you guys so much thank you
Cindy for stopping by you guys and like
I said being here
just being an amazing support to me Jen
thank you so much love for being such an
amazing friend to me and I will be
texting you for sure
Linda I appreciate you I appreciate
every one of you guys standing by me
thank you perfect for being here and
modding for me Suzanne you're an amazing
woman thank you for stopping in Lindsey
I appreciate you if you need to email me
I will make sure that my email is in my
description but you guys have an amazing
rest of your guys's day I am gonna go
I'm gonna go and take care of these
children and go cook some dinner for
them I love you all you guys think you
against so so so much stay tuned for my
next video bye bye mate mate